Friday, January 23, 2009

Stepping Out In Faith

***There is an update at the bottom of this post.

Mr B is coming home with the baby tonight. A week ago, our plans were that I would take the kids to stay with my mother tonight. Plans were that tonight the baby would spend the night at our house with Mr B. Plans were tomorrow he would drop off the baby and then come over for Belle's birthday party. Plans have changed.

I have decided to take a deep breath and step out in faith.

Now faith is a well-grounded assurance of that for which we hope, and a conviction of the reality of things which we do not see. ~ Hebrews 11:1 (Weymouth New Testament)

I will be here tonight. I don't know how I feel about it. I just kinda feel numb. No anxiety. No tears. Am I in shock? Has God granted me peace? I am praying that it is the latter. I am begging God to keep the peace flowing through tomorrow.

I cannot tell you how scary the future seems. Will the heart pounding angst return? How will I feel about him tonight? Of course the actions will be there, but I am praying a spark of emotion accompanies them.

So if I may ask for another prayer, please say one for me tonight...I don't even really know what for, but I just know when my prayer warriors run my name through their lips, God seems to listen and sweep my fears, sorrow, and apprehension away, if only for a short time. There is such power when you all embrace me in your conversations with Him and for that, I am truly grateful.

Mr B is still at work and the weather is getting bad outside. Our overnight has been postponed. Perhaps on Sunday, perhaps next weekend. We will wait and see. I will keep you updated.

Also, Marcus is doing much better. We have not heard back from the doctors, but the boil has drained a great deal and is much smaller. That being said, while we were out shopping today, he was sitting in the cart and threw his head back, hitting the seat. Poor baby bled and screamed. I know it had to hurt. So keep prayin for him...I appreciate it.


Ang said...

OH Sweetie!! I am lifting your name up as soon as I send this!! Stay strong...keep Satan behind you and do the best you can to support your husband, love this child the best you know how & God will give you the grace you need..I love you!!

Mom on a Coulee said...

WOW!!! That's all I can say, your faith is shining through, I am praying for you and I will try to get a Rosary in tonight just for you.
GOD BLESS you in overabundance tonight.

Tranquility said...

Praying for you! Hang in there.

Daberath said...

Thinking of you tonight! Praying its going well.

Ang said...

Hey just was thinking about you! Hope your night went me later and let me know!!

heidi said...

Good for you, for being willing. ((hugs))

Poor Marcus! Hope he feels better soon. :-(

jill said...

so proud of you! and impressed and inspired too! hoping marcus feels better today! just passed an award on to you too. :)

Ang said...

Your heart was willing and God will bless you for it! Bless Marcus' heart...I am sure that hurt his little head. On a 'funny' note your word verification is "diet"..think that's a sign for me?....sigh...:)

jill said...

another award for the fabulous mrs. b. check it out! :)